The Future is closing in!

Four days now. Today I went over to "the room". No details really. I know them. He knows them. All I can say. I am still stressed out. So much to do really. I didn't win the mega millions so no help there. And this is the most boring blog ever. Sorry. Crazy happy and scared and stressed and in love and excited and tired. I need bed.

Less than a week!

Sitting here varnishing a bunch of newly finished projects. I am so proud of them *pics soon to follow* I get better and better at them and more particular,frustrated if they are not perfect. I don't have the room or the equipment to paint my very best but I do try. But I get mad when I go to a show and the project is not what I want it to be (ie I see it in the light and/or I see flaws etc)

Past that I can't wait to see what my guy thinks of them, in person no less. Less than six days now! Is this really happening? I think it is!!! I really think it is. It's been almost 2 years. Who does this? Us it seems. It will be two years in June. Now we move to the next level. YAY!!! I doubt we will ever do anything by the book. I love it.And him :-)

PISSED

It took me so long to get here I forget why I am*sad laugh*.....tic tic tic OK..I am back but tired. I hate FB. I hate how easy it is to post or text or type there before thinking. My problem is that I'd move away from the issue and then post like a crazy person. I need time to think and plan.I'd suck as a soldier.I over think any plan... my battalion would be dead.

Secrets

between lovers can be as crazy and beautiful and hysterical as the secrets held between two childhood friends,but different of course *giggles* (LEO)

Progress and suprises!!

New and amazing ideas always rock. Surprises from the past as well. Too tired to go past that *sorry* (hugs to my two subscribers!!) Better things this week I swear. For the record though...Charlie Sheen is the biggest asshole on the planet. I can't even bare to listen him. I think he is schitzophrenic and self medicating and rich and just basically an asshole in general. I would  know (well except the rich aspect) He is not even that funny :-(

Late night ramblings...

Oh the songs I will sing, the words I will write as I sink down and rise up to that place in my head  that allows me to just be free.

More positive note!

Involved in a very exciting project that I can't even believe I am involved in. Stay tuned. It is crazy awesome.

Working...not as hard as I should though

I feel a bit lost tonight I guess. I have a bunch of opportunities in front of me and my focus is all over the place. I know why though. So that is a start.There comes a time when you can't blame your past for everything and you need to step up or fall away. Your past only wins if you let it and I am sick of battling mine.